Hi. My name is Hashimoto’s. I’m an invisible autoimmune disease that attacks your thyroid gland causing you to become hypothyroid.
I am now velcroed to you for life. If you have hypothyroidism, you probably have me. I am the number one cause of it in the U.S. and many other places around the world.
I’m so sneaky—I don’t always show up in your blood work.
Others around you can’t see me or hear me, but YOUR body feels me.
I can attack you anywhere and any way I please.
I can cause severe pain or, if I’m in a good mood, I can just cause you to ache all over.
Remember when you and energy ran around together and had fun?
I took energy from you, and gave you exhaustion. Try to have fun now.
I can take good sleep from you and in its place, give you brain fog and lack of concentration.
I can make you want to sleep 24/7, and I can also cause insomnia.
I can make you tremble internally or make you feel cold or hot when everyone else feels normal.
I can also give you swollen hands and feet, swollen face and eyelids, swollen everything.
I can make you feel very anxious with panic attacks or very depressed. I can also cause other mental health problems. You know crazy mood swings? That’s me. Crying for no reason? Angry for no reason? That’s probably me too.
I can make your hair fall out, become dry and brittle, cause acne, cause dry skin, the sky is the limit with me.
I can make you gain weight and no matter what you eat or how much you exercise, I can keep that weight on you. I can also make you lose weight. I don’t discriminate.
Some of my other autoimmune disease friends often join me, giving you even more to deal with.
If you have something planned, or are looking forward to a great day, I can take that away from you. You didn’t ask for me. I chose you for various reasons:
That virus or viruses you had that you never really recovered from, or that car accident, or maybe it was the years of abuse and trauma (I thrive on stress.) You may have a family history of me. Whatever the cause, I’m here to stay.
I hear you’re going to see a doctor to try and get rid of me. That makes me laugh. Just try. You will have to go to many, many doctors until you find one who can help you effectively.
You will be put on the wrong medication for you, pain pills, sleeping pills, energy pills, told you are suffering from anxiety or depression, given anti-anxiety pills and antidepressants.
There are so many other ways I can make you sick and miserable, the list is endless - that high cholesterol, gall bladder issue, blood pressure issue, blood sugar issue, heart issue among others? That’s probably me.
Can’t get pregnant, or have had a miscarriage?
That’s probably me too.
Shortness of breath or “air hunger?” Yep, probably me.
Liver enzymes elevated? Yep, probably me.
Teeth and gum problems? TMJ?
Hives? Yep, probably me.
I told you the list was endless.
You may be given a TENs unit, get massaged, told if you just sleep and exercise properly I will go away.
You’ll be told to think positively, you’ll be poked, prodded, and MOST OF ALL, not taken seriously when you try to explain to the endless number of doctors you’ve seen, just how debilitating I am and how ill and exhausted you really feel. In all probability you will get a referral from these ‘understanding’ (clueless) doctors, to see a psychiatrist.
Your family, friends and co-workers will all listen to you until they just get tired of hearing about how I make you feel, and just how debilitating I can be.
Some of them will say things like “Oh, you are just having a bad day” or “Well, remember, you can’t do the things you use to do 20 YEARS ago”, not hearing that you said 20 DAYS ago.
They’ll also say things like, “if you just get up and move, get outside and do things, you’ll feel better.” They won’t understand that I take away the ‘gas’ that powers your body and mind to ENABLE you to do those things.
Some will start talking behind your back, they’ll call you a hypochondriac, while you slowly feel that you are losing your dignity trying to make them understand, especially if you are in the middle of a conversation with a “normal” person, and can’t remember what you were going to say next. You’ll be told things like, “Oh, my grandmother had that, and she’s fine on her medication” when you desperately want to explain that I don’t impose myself upon everyone in the exact same way, and just because that grandmother is fine on the medication SHE’S taking, doesn’t mean it will work for you.
They will not understand that having this disease impacts your body from the top of your head to the tip of your toes, and that every cell and every body system and organ requires the proper amount and the right kind of of thyroid hormone medication for YOU.
Not what works for someone else.
The only place you will get the kind of support and understanding in dealing with me is with other people that have me. They are really the only ones who can truly understand.
I am Hashimoto’s Disease.
INFATUATION is Blind
Love is not blind. Love is being naked. Not physically but spiritually and emotionally. Love is being able to show every last ounce of who you are. Your fears, dreams, passions, secrets. Everything. Love is not being afraid to show all of that to the other person and not discriminating the other person in return. It’s yelling at the other person because they are just so stupid but kissing and making out like you’ve never had a care in the world two minutes later. Love is holding her hair while she’s throwing up and putting aloe on his sunburn after a hard day at work. Love is not blind. It is clear as the sky. Infatuation blinds itself into thinking it is love. Infatuation is doing anything for someone that would do nothing for you. Infatuation is pouring your heart and soul and body to someone who will do the same to someone else tomorrow. Infatuation is blind. Love is not.
Thank you Lord!
I just wanted to say how thankful I am for everything that God has done for, in, and through me. I am so grateful for all the people in my life. And the people he took out of my life. And the people he put in, took out, and put back in! I have an amazing family that supports and loves me no matter what. I have a sister that (although bratty and annoying at times) we love each other to death and would do anything for each other. I have a mom that has my back and is the sweetest, most loving person I know. I have a boyfriend who I love with my whole heart; who understands me and loves me and treats me right; who puts up with my crazy emotions and lets me cry when I need to - even if it’s for no reason at all. I have a new best friend that I can go to with my problems but also obsess over Gastby at the same time. I have an old best friend who I’ve had ups and downs with but have rekindled our friendship and if anything were to be wrong I can go to her at anytime. - I have a beautiful life. And a wonderful God who watches over me. At times I think my life is crumbling, but I have all I need. Wonderful people and a Great Everlasting God.
I hate not knowing what is in store for me. I hate being unsure of the future and not having any control over anything that is going on in my life. I know God has my life and complete control, but it’s still hard to give it all over to Him. It seems like everything is spinning out of control and I’m in the center of the tornado. I have been so depressed that I just gave up on my school work and now everything is over a week late, making me even more stressed out because I’m scared I won’t get into the university I applied for. I’m scared Cody and I won’t be able to get an apartment and I’ll have to live in the dorms while he stays here. He lost yet another job yesterday and I don’t even know if we would get approved for an apartment. I’ve already bought all of this stuff in hopes of us getting a cute little apartment for us to live in for the two years left I have in school. I’m so scared. I want everything to be perfect. But life isn’t perfect. I’m really trying to come to terms with that. I need to pray and think about it. Because I need to go to school and make something out of my life, but I can’t live without Cody. I know I sound like some lovesick puppy, but it’s true. He completes me. We’re getting married. We’re not completely sure when, where, or how, but we know we are. I’m just waiting for him to ask my mom for my grandmother’s ring and for him to pop the question. And waiting for that is both exciting and terrifying at the same time. It also gives me hope for the future. Knowing the love of my life is always going to be there, no matter how close or far apart we are. That’s what is keeping me going through these uncertain and scary times in my life. That and God. Mostly God. He will always be there for me. Having this support group, I should have no reason to feel fear.
“Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him…”
(Psalm 37:7, NKJV)
Are you struggling with trying to make a dream come to pass? Are you frustrated in a relationship, trying to make someone else change or live right? You may mean well, you may have good goals, but if you are trying to orchestrate things to happen your way, on your timetable, you are only going to frustrate yourself. At some point, you have to turn those circumstances over to God and trust that He has your best interest at heart.
How do you turn things over to God? Start by making the choice and declaring your resolve. Simply say, “Father, I choose to let You be God of this situation. I take my hands off. I trust You.” Then, choose to worship Him. Worship is one of the best ways to set your heart and mind in the right place. You can’t worry and worship at the same time! Worship is a sign that you are trusting God; worry is a sign that you are trying to control things.
Today, take the pressure off yourself and turn things over to God. Give Him control and let Him take your setbacks and turn them into comebacks. Remember, the God who holds the universe holds you in the palm of His hand. Trust Him and let God be God in every area of your life!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Father, today I choose to release every care and concern into Your loving hands. I refuse to worry and choose to trust. Fill me with Your peace. Show me Your ways as I surrender every area of my heart and life to You in Jesus’ name. Amen.
I needed this. My anxiety about all of the this that are changing or not going right in my life are getting overwhelming. I need to just hand it all over to God and not let myself try to change people.